aUDreY*sSUMMER '23

WORDS
これは私の色々詩です。かなしい時も楽しい時もでした。

20/5/2024:

i am a mosaic of everyone i've ever loved, even for a heartbeat.

1/4/2024: life 💌

so many people have touched my life. i hope i have done the same.

13/3/2024: break apart

theres somebody out there who still remembers singing to me,
and telling me about their dreams.
and someone who remembers embarrassing little secrets,
and kept exchanges of letters about things with no means.
maybe they've kept my handwritten notes,
and still know the exact time i was born.
maybe they've thrown it all way,
or instead burned it all and had it torn.
people seem to come and go,
but when it happens fuck it hurts.
it feels like its all crashing down,
and you just feel remorse.
it makes me kind of break apart,
was it just a means to end?
its a brand new start,
and you are were a friend.


4/3/2024: 🌧️

its so cold and warm.
i miss my dog
i miss my life


8/2/2024: 🌸

Promise you'll say if it gets
Promise you'll say if it gets too much
Don't be so scared of corners
Don't be so tired of this life


13/7/2023: 🪷

Your eyes appear endearing
But behind them is a different sight


8/7/2023:

You're just looking for someone else to take the blame.
But I can't blame you 'cos I know we're both the same.
But I can't argue with you 'cos I know that you're so dumb.
But it's fine because we're still having so much fun.

There's an emptiness in the living room where we used to dance.
I can't really tell you how it feels, was it really r?
Why did we both pretend we both had something?

It didn't last for a very long time.
The old memories were just a part of my imagination
Yours came from something else, don't want confrontation
I get this feeling, it comes and it goes

It stays with me, sometimes it just flows.
When I look at you, I think that I know



?/?/2022:

It's hard to look into the reflection.
I don't remember or recall.
Who am I and who I was originally.

What if I was alright
and never got the flight?
What if I was strong
and my hair was still straight and long?

I don't know what's happened
But I'm losing myself completely
My choices make me trapped in
this cycle of constant misery
Who do I have to blame this all on

"No one but myself to blame"
Stuck in this life there's no where to run
Can someone just write my name?
I wanna feel like crying

Hot stinging sensation on my face
Been holding back for way too much